I’m going to be transparent for a second. I feel like a lot of people are in the same boat as me. //
I am currently in the in-between part of life, an awkward, seemingly endless season of life. I feel as though most people experience this more times than not. It’s not a high or a low. It’s kind of like the “I’m doing alright. Life’s pretty good. Nothing exciting is really happening and I don’t know when something exciting will happen. I’m kind of just waiting on God to tell me what to do next. So, I’ll just hang out until then.”
I just got my fancy shmancy college degree in Marketing, a huge, stressful part of my life, but now, what next? I’m looking for “the next big thing”. I’m waiting on God to tell me what to do, where to go. It seems sometimes that He’s silent in lots of areas in my life. I’m headed for where I think He’s pointing me…but right now there’s no road map and I’m ready to go wherever He points me.
So, I’m working a lot, reading books to find Jesus, surrounding myself with good people and going to church a lot. Maybe if I run fast enough, look in the right direction and am immersed in His Word, maybe I’ll know what to do.
So something’s got to change. I needed to go back to my first love, even if I can’t seem to pinpoint exactly how He feels about me. (Remember, He always wants you—even if you don’t think so.)
I’m realizing that my lull is equipping me to focus on eternity.
I’m learning that if I keep focused on “the next big thing”, I’ll miss out learning about myself and building my relationship with God.
Life is not meant to be lived on the mountain top but in the valley. I have seen that when you reach the mountain top, I become disillusioned and the daily routine is work and bothersome. I want to live in the everyday with a joyful hunger to know and seek Jesus more today than I did yesterday. I want to savor the victories. I want to have passion and purpose in every little thing that I do, allowing me to glorify Jesus in all my actions.
I must remember that my faith is based on His grace and not my feelings.
But now, this is what the Lord says — He who created you, Jacob, He who formed you Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”
So, if you can relate to this, keep going. There is power in pushing through the mundane things and being faithful where you are at. When the Lord is silent, know that is not the end. The God who gives life to the dead is the God who wants to be with you today. Seek Him and I promise you it will be worth it.
These transition seasons were meant to strengthen us. If you’re not out of the wilderness yet, you’re not alone. //